ON “WHAT IS IT THAT SHOULD BECOME?”, by Tomáš Janypka

Dear Sonja,

one more time thank you for your courageous and intimate performance!

while i was watching it i found myself in need to response in some way, to be active participant of it

Spontaneously, i documented (firstly) on the paper how i experience it all in real time
just like a poem, live diary, distance dialog with you and myself
stream of consciousness without my own censorship

so i would like to share it with you

light and sun

her – textures – full

room lights
skin membrane
i am blind


someone is walking
grasp it, grasp it


i am falling in turning
reminds me today meditation in the morning
passage of time


catch me, touch me
again
just this moment, i prefer
as red nails of tender fighter
black hole into your arm pit
squeeze your breast
to center


90ties – memories – VHS
home video
doors stay open
are you leaving


layer of loading

abruption
to the restless


what parts of body is sensing

up-side down dreams

greyscape of solitude
in falling balcony


you are aside me
over there left – right


how do you feel darling?

wandering, wondering
domination of wave
i am below you
down


would you pohladkať ma
hold me!
bring me closer
yes, am i child


everyshape of your.mine room
sticks with whiteness of liquid
resambles – odrazy


smell of the wood – skrine
hide myself close to it
this is old doors of my grandmother she is dead now


alive

here is comoposition
you are searching for new looking
by reshaped things, crashing them


intuition

i am sitting
my back is touching the chair
i open space behind
to the other room
i follow the voluntary order


stomac kiss

i am far
i am touching the screen
i am touching you
do you feel?
i am trying it
gentle – not to calm you
continue



your breath is with me
is close to me
on my chest

blueberry components of soul

kiss again
just right eye

now
i am with you

my eyes is your camera

just for seconds
being carried to the sofa
light change
intimacy – stay!


this is the place

what is my position/role – mate, witness, boyfriend, preacher, sister
just someone close


you don´t need to be man or woman
lips are closed

listen

agreed under
where do i belong to be?
green loafs


you can go
leave us
leave it go


in annoying tones
is always light
would be better to shut that melody now


forever!

cause i want do it with my phone

we are going somewhere
Yes
for what cost?


just finish it
i can leave the session too


courage

seeing black room
bring back memory of red-pinky room
flat is your friend?

in my room is dark
barelly see what i am writting
on white paper with my pencil


what are you asking for?
pushing flatness


silence
transparency
at the end


and after it


Hug from Slovakia
Tomáš